{help. please.}

Blogging makes me totally depressed. incase you were interested. which, you just might be. or not. whatev. i started blogging when i was like, 15. seriously. in high school. I kind of liked it back then. granted, i wasn't very good at it. Like, i kind of stunk at writing. and i had some serious woo is me teenage angst. but who didn't back then? thats what i thought. anyway, i just kept on doing my thing. blogging, you know. i like to think that i got better over time. I mean, i went back to look at some of my old material the other day and i'm not going to lie, after i got out of the really crappy writing stage i was funny. pretty darn funny. (is it a sin to think your own stuff is funny?) maybe it's just me. then i did this 18 month sabatical serve the Lord melt in Florida deal. a lot changed over those 18 months. like the hightechness of blogs these days. i am so out of the techonological loop, it's painful. and slightly disguisting. (one thing definetly did not change. i still can't spell. sorry) i used to think my little blog here was pretty up there, i had some cool banners i changed every once and again. and i mean, come on, my little picture button things on the side? those were pretty cool... i thought. but then i came home to all these super fancy mommy blogs that make me feel like the crappy kid in third grade who still can't spell his name and gets picked last for dodge ball (sorry if that brings up painful memories for you. my bad). so not with it. i mean, what is with all these cutesy little buttons on the top of pages that take me to your about me section? i dont think those things even existed back in my prime blogging days. i just dont know what to do with myself here in the blogging world anymore. i need help, that's what i need. and maybe you can do it. if someone would kindly give me the low down on whats up top here in the blogging world these days that would be cool. AND if someone wanted to make me a little header dealio that would be cool too. want to rename my blog? go for it. hook a girl up. or teach me how. whichev works for you works for me too. wait. better idea. maybe i'll just start fresh and jumpstart a new blog. out with the old and in with the new, right? right. but would ya'll kindly help me with a name... besides Lauren. its a cool name. maybe like the best name, but not for a blog. yeah, help me with that and we'll be cool. and in no time we'll be up and running with something bomb.com/edu (because as meg would put it, it might just be educational too). maybe i'll be less depressed about the whole thing. maybe and just for you i'll work on my spelling ***** and for the record: i think it's about time we start up a worship team. like old school southern style. i'm being completely serious. check this out and you'll be sure to be in on this one too. (please take note: i did not in any way, shape, and/or form just type that out in one big stupid ugly paragraph. i def had different paragraphs. its just tacky to do something like that you see above. and super hard to read. but this little blog of mine just had to go and screw it all up. reason number #234985 why blogging makes me depressed. and yes, i did try to go back and fix it, it hates me. thank you. good night)